The first time I heard this song, it shocked me so much that I cried endlessly. No matter how many times I hear this song, it never fails to give me chills as the song just speaks aptly of the things that I had done. Things that I had done to hurt myself and someone special in my life. I cannot turn back time to undo the things I did or wish upon a star to undo the things he did. There are so many "if only" and "why". All I can do now is to learn to let go and unknot the kink in my heart. I figure the kink is there because this song still makes me cry. I want to focus on the things that make me feel blissful. Many things make me feel happy but few make me blissful. Talking to you and having you sing me to sleep make me feel blissful, as if nothing can ever be wrong in the world. Remembering the past, and all the "if only" and "why", cause me to crumble at work, in the bus, wherever, whenever. Regrets are scary. Recalling your voice, and that you are there and I am here, cause me to be tormented at work, in the bus, wherever, whenever. Daoyi's playing of the wrong song at the wrong moment, sunshine turns to clouds. I am a mess.

Why do guys with their own pads seem more appealing? At least to me, this fact gives these guys more points.

 

Is it because it signifies his coming of age - no longer a boy but a man? Does it reflect his financial capability or independence? Or are we influenced by the stereotypes drafted by the authors and story-tellers of the world?

 

I reckon it is all of the above. They might not be true but they are reflected this way.

 

However, it is not a common practice for people of late teens and in their 20s to stay on their own, away from their parents, in Singapore. Even people in their 30s who are not married usually carry on staying at home. Therefore, when someone tells you he/she stays on his own, the first thought that appears in one's mind is if his/her family has problems. In actual fact, it is a common culture in Western countries and other big countries where the people who come from suburbs work in the city. Is this the reason why Singaporeans like to stay in their comfort zone? Probably so.

Destined to be an Events Planner, not only do I plan most events for my uni friends, I am also working as a Social Events Executive. It is in my blood.

 

Terence says I like doing 'it' so I should do 'it', but it gets tiring especially when it is much assumed by most in the group. When I am very busy, and not able to organise and coordinate, does that mean one poor friend of ours is not going to have a celebration, albeit a small simple affair? Yes, I like to do such things as I love catching up with friends, making the group harmonious and in-touch, and value friendships a lot. And I do mean 'a lot'. Sometimes, I might get grief from my better half about being more for my friends than for him.

 

Nevertheless, I would wish that I am given the opportunities to take breaks with an easy mind, knowing that everything is being taken care of. I am sure my perfectionism is not acting up here. Right? I would love to take a breather from time to time. There are about 10 of us in the group. Spanning a year including organising normal gatherings, it can be taxing. Luckily, I have helping hands from those who can at the very least, shop for presents with me. I do count every little blessing that I get.

 

Just came home from buying Terence's birthday present...I feel a sense of accomplishment once again.