I have been blogging sad entries. It is time to inject some happiness into this lil' site of mine.

 

Just like how everyone thinks that Good Friday is all about sadness as it is the day that Jesus died on the cross. It is actually the day that we are saved as Jesus has borne our sins with His death. It is a good day. On top of that, He is able to be the Greatness that He is because He resurrected. If He did not die, how can He resurrect? So, Good Friday is a great day. You just have to remember what Jesus has done for you.

 

So...the thing that is taking up most of my awake time is work. Thank God work is great. I am doing something that I like and am good at. My work place is very near my house. My boss is really nice and good to work with. I wonder when I would tire of the scenic view of the golf course everytime I walk out of my general office's doors. Perhaps never...

 

Although I put in tons of hours at work, time really flies and I do not get disgruntled. Really glad that I can still have the energy to meet up with my friends whom I treasure so much...

 

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me - Philippians 4:13

The veil of strength that I possess fails me from time to time. The ache, I cannot bear.

 

I no longer want to discuss my love life, or lack of one, so don't ask me anymore. Keeping my emotions locked away in a corner of my heart, combined with myself becoming a workaholic, is the best way to allowing my facade to hang in there. Facades are important in life as they help you to cope and continue with life, as best you can.

 

Neither do I want to have any expectations, nor remember the past. I read somewhere once that love is a function of memory. It really is true.

Tomorrow is the first day of work and the excitement of it all is marred by my zombie-like mood. I cannot seem to garner emotions relating to happiness. Life alone feels stifling. It is still the first day so I tried my best to create feelings akin to the original jitters by putting together my clothing ensemble for tomorrow. Now that the fashion show with my sister as the only audience is done, I am back to zombie-like mood again. I cannot wait for endless amount of work to engulf me so my heart will be numbed and no longer feel the painful ache.